I am a cradle Catholic mother of  grown children. like many , I grew up after vatican 2 and learned nothing substantial of my faith/ its doctrines/ the whys it teaches what it teaches.
So here I am. late 40s, yougest child in college.  I mourn for the children I should have had.
I mourn for the marriage I once had, before things got bad and my husband decided he didn't want to be here anymore.   Both of my children are away from the faith. One living a lifestyle that is not good.
I carry on.  AT the moment I found myself abandoned an alone I heard the voice of the hound of heaven. The one true love.  I set out to discover for myself what our Church teaches really. not what some liberal' trying to be pastoral" priest says.  
What I found was a church that I love and can never leave.
 I have found peace and joy in the Church,   Jesus is my spouse who does not abandon me , tell me I am not 'good enough".   He alone suffices..
yesterday my confessor told me to read Philippians 4:4-9,
"have no anxiety about anything< but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving make your request known to God.  And the peace of God, which passes all understanding , will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatever is True, whatever is Honorable, Whatever is Just, Whatever is Pure, Whatever is Lovely, Whatever is Gracious,If there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of Praise, Think about these things.    and later- I can do all things in him who strengthens me.
Keep my eyes on the prize- Jesus Christ, eternal salvation.